Conspiracy of the universe

It is my strongest belief that when you are stumble upon what you are meant to do, the universe will conspire to have all the odds in your favor.

A few months ago, I had this gut feeling that the universe was planning to align everything in my favor. I had signed up to volunteer for a local film festival, that I loved attending. During the volunteer orientation, I was suddenly overcome by this incredible sensation of finally being where I was supposed to be. I felt like I was doing something that I was always meant to do. I felt useful, I felt utterly satisfied.

I did have an awesome time at the festival. But the festival gave me an opportunity to watch really awesome movies, meet some amazing people....one person in particular was especially intriguing. So this mystery person works at a local coffee shop. I went in there one morning of the festival. I had my festival T-shirt on. I ordered the same 'ol americanized chai. The barista was very attentive and friendly. He quickly engaged me in conversation. He asked me if the festival was still going on. I said yes and walked away with my chai. Later I was thinking about the conversation and remembered that I had a free film voucher. So I took the the voucher and a festival program to the barista. The barista was taken aback and was very excited. He cam in to watch a movie. I felt really happy. I was glad that I was able to do something totally nice for a stranger. I have since met this barista several times and had some really great conversations. I guess I made a new friend in the process.

The whole experience helped me realize that I wanted to do something that gives back to my community. So I applied to a local museum...and lo and behold the universe conspired to get me a wonderful job there. I am now the happiest I have been in months. My job lets me meet more fascinating people, while giving me the satisfaction of giving back to my community. I am learning a lot of new things at my job. Its makes me feel like an active member of my community. I finally feel like I belong.

After graduating from college, I had a lot of anxiety about where my life was headed. I was insecure and suffering from bouts of depression. I felt like I was doing something wrong. Everyone else seemed to have everything planned out. I felt like I was disappointing everyone, mostly I was disappointing myself.

This job has made me realize that I am a good capable person with lots of potential and talents. It has made me realize that I have a place and purpose in this universe. I realize now that I am my own person, and as such cannot dance to the beats of everyone else's drums.

After this self acceptance, I feel like the universe has been waiting to oblige me. Now that I am happy with myself the universe seems to have rearranged itself to make way for me.

I recently heard a really nice song. It was part of the soundtrack of Aamir Khan's directorial debut, "Taare Zameen Par." A really awesome-must-watch-movie! But I digress! The song had the following chorus:

"tu doop hain, jam se bikar,
tu hain nadi, oh bekhabar!
ud chal kahin, bahe chal kahin
dil kush jahan...teri to manzil hain wahan!"

For those of you who did not understand the lyrics, it roughly translates to: you are the rays of the sun, disperse with might, you are a river, o you unaware soul!
Fly away somewhere, flow away spmewhere
wherever your heart is happy, that is your destiny!

I guess you do loose something in translation. But it is a great song...and my translation probably does not do it justice. But needless to say I feel confident and ready to live life.