my gallavanting thoughts

I feel like I have nothing to write. It always starts this way. I think I have writer's block so I just start writing...anything...everything... for example, ellipses, I think are my favorite punctuation mark...I love the feeling of thought that continues to flow and not stopping for any period
I would have a hard time trying to keep my mind still... If you think I am talkative...my mind will stump you...it is constantly conversing.

There is is no time that I can recall where it has not had any thoughts...I think what I am really concerned about is meditation.

I have resolved that this year I will engage in a spiritual activity of some form...I am trying to figure out what I need to do for that...perhaps I should attend art of living classes...perhaps i need to meditate...maybe i need to go to church...then again...writing in itself can be my spiritual activity.

Perhaps I should identify what I am seeking to gain form spiritual activity...growth..awareness...connection to the indescribable vastness of the universe...openness...understanding...a sense of belonging...compassion...I think I just want to be plugged in to the energy, goodwill, wisdom, and love of the universe.

Maybe my study of Joseph Campbell would be a good start...there it is...the answer is always within reach yet somehow most of the time...it seems cloaked...hidden away...perhaps it is me who is hidden and cloaked.

This year is about me coming out to hiding...facing the world and growing into the person I was always meant to be.

I want to have the focus and stamina of someone like Micheal Phelps, the courage, vision and determination of someone like Barak Obama, the wisdom, the lightheartedness and spirit of someone like Jon Stewart and the innocence and wonder of someone like Flight of the Conchords or Demitri Martin.

I am counting on the generosity of the universe to help me in my mission.

What I need now is to believe in myself. I am capable of wonderful things. I can accomplish my goals. I am talented, smart and resourceful. I am kind and tolerant. I am open minded. I have the strength to pick myself up after failures. I have the perseverance to follow through with my plans. I have the energy to accomplish my goals. I have the good company of many to help me through this. I am not ashamed or afraid of who I am. I am a good person and I deserve good things.